LIFE OF CHLOE. chapt 6 / “My Blackest Times”

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Monday, August 20, 2012

“have you heard from Chloe?”

“No and i miss her. I really thought i would find her yesterday night, at our long awaited reunion dinner… did you speak to her on the phone? Texted her?”

“Tried to call her in the weekend. Phone rang unanswered. All the time…”

Please leave me be. I am not in the mood, i am not in your moods. You search for a happy face, i know that. I know you well, all of you.

You miss friendship, but you still long for control. Control over the missing spots in your lives. Control over your empty voids. Control over me.

There is always a good company around when all things are straight and fine, someone to cherish and flattering words fly away in public places. But i am not public today. I am private. I have no smiles to offer today, and i probably won’t for some time. I am sick and tired of hearing your impossible stories of fake happiness and plastic worlds. I don’t feel like laughing with you today, i am alone with my blackest times.

And funny thing is, i am in desperate need of someone to listen in silence, someone to just touch and caress, someone who is not scared to tell to my face how hard and painful these days are. And confess to me that sometimes we all feel one and the same under our masks.

That’s what i need, but i know i am not finding it here with you. I left my mask at the party.

…the phone rang. Once. Twice… Chloe obviously felt that but didn’t answer. She just ordered another espresso and kept reading the wiser words from a faraway friend.

“I am unique. But i am no different from you…”

thanks to Jo™

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